Who Dat?!

Oh, my tummy feels full just thinking about this recent vacation to New Orleans, Louisiana!

I was in the New Orleans area for about two weeks during the  holidays of Christmas and New Year’s visiting my mom.  Her partner Jimmy had bought my trip to come and visit for one of her and my Christmas gifts.  This in itself was fantastic considering I haven’t spent the holidays with my Mom since I moved out the summer of ’05.  My Mom, Sandy, moved away from central California where I was raised shortly after that.  Life and time has gone by and we were great-fully given an opportunity to spend some decent time together.  And oh, what a time we had!

Steak chocolate cake and Thunderheart says “Look at the Orchids”

I ate steak.  Feelin a lil’ savage.

Sad and lonely, wanna be held and nurtured.
Looking longingly at the orchids I found the word of God… literally. A Billy Graham pamphlet titled ‘Christ is Alive’ tucked in the flowers… Then someone gave me ‘A Story of Perfect Love’ – The Gospel of John.
The hits keep coming…Life is funny.

My new friends made chocolate cake for me and we are watching Thunderheart.

Surrounded by all new people at a time when I  am broken hearted…  Nothing new.

Reminiscent of my own, I have been welcomed to the family.

Lonely, empty, with a hurting heart and an aching stomach.

I look around.  Mundane and the simple life every where i turn.  Timeless love and a deep longing.  (no one to look at me and know me beyond knowing)

i AM in LOVE.

Lets get on Native time. … and momma, Where’s the Vodka? Yesterday was a day to remember.

Automne

Les feuilles sont magnifiques.  Je suis content.

Time Stands Still as another Month Passes in a Sunny Afternoon

I lounged in my backyard from mid- July to now, the biggining of the end of summer.  I had a wonderful time basking in the bright and golden rays of the summer sun.  It feels like we might have an Indian summer.  The warmth extending into the calendar, allowing our traveling brethren a chance to continue in the smooth flow of the season of warm hearts.  Oh what a beauty my backyard will be.  What enjoyment I get from watching the continually changing scenery, the new friends met, and living each new moment with the intent of an open heart and steady awareness; accepting life as it comes. 

I have been able to experience much pleasure in tending to my backyard.  And oh!  How much time and attention it requires!  I have many things to consider.  The waves of laughter and faces.  The forests of growing hearts.  The acres of sleepy prarie.  The miles walked to the watering hole.  The wild things.   The silent and still things.  The amount of care each one requires.  It is as the care needed to grow a child.  And as delicate as well.  The flux and flow of change.  What a joyous experience to be present for!

I watched in awe as the story of the summer has unraveled before my very eyes.  And as I watched, I learned.  I learned through the movement of my travels.  Reuniting with family.  Meeting new friends.  Seeing loved ones from my past.  What a comfort it is to know that love is eternal and timeless.  What a comfort it is to experience the feeling of home and to realize it is always within reach.  I marvel at the pulsating life around me, watching it morph and change as time stands still.  This is home.

On the Road

Hanging out at a coffee shop.  Gotsta gotsta gotsta go.  I gotta get out of here.  The city is closing in.  Lights and sounds everywhere.  

It isn’t that bad.  I am quite used to this now.  The over stimulation of English conversations.  People with people.  It isn’t like Paris.  Oh no.  People make eye contact, spark up conversation.

Master of avoidance, I still haven’t bought a coffee yet.  Just hanging out on the internet.  Trying to get things together before I begin the descent to California.  This is going to be interesting…

I have a hitch hiking partner again.  One of my best friends, Jon, will accompany me.  Might even meet my family.  

That is where I am headed.  Good ol’ San Joaquin Valley.  My sister is having a baby on Sunday.  Hopefully before.  If someone would just pull the plug on the whole thing…  Things will be back to normal (?) by the end of the month when I officially turn a year older.

This is all just some crazy scheme.  They all think they have got me fooled, but I am the one with the upper hand.  Ha ha ha!!

I have a few posts pending.  Don’t worry.  They will be good.  A lot less random and crazy as this one.  But equally entertaining to post.  I added a few older posts recently, after having edited them a bit.  They are worth checking out.

Just thought I would give a short shout out that I am still alive and kicking.  That there are still stories to live and tell, even if I am on my home turf now.  Life and Adventure goes on.

I am still basking in the spreading light.  Life is good.

We were talking-about the space between us all
And the people-who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth-then it’s far too late-when they pass away.
We were talking-about the love we all could share-when we find it
To try our best to hold it there-with our love
With our love-we could save the world-if they only knew.
Try to realize it’s all within yourself
No-one else can make you change
And to see you’re really only very small,
And life flows ON within you and without you.
We were talking-about the love that’s gone so cold and the people,
Who gain the world and lose their soul-
They don’t know-they can’t see-are you one of them?
When you’ve seen beyond yourself-then you may find, peace of mind,
Is waiting there-
And the time will come when you see
we’re all one, and life flows on within you and without you.